What has been going on in my heart.

Is it weird to think that I can feel God working in my heart?
Like, I can physically feel Him touching my heart and making it better.

It is kind of weird, I suppose.

But for the first time in my 21 years of living on this earth, I can feel Him near me. I don't feel lonely anymore. It's more than just knowing that He is around me, now. I can really, truly feel my Father's presence. It's amazing. I absolutely love this feeling.

I can also see Him answering my little prayers. I don't consider it coincidence anymore. I prayed for my friend to get a job, and the next day he got one. I prayed that my friend's mother would be healed, and now she's getting better. God's Will be done. He is amazing. My Lord is amazing.

I have been wanting to listen to nothing but Christian music, been wanting to eat nothing but healthy food, been wanting to read nothing but His Word. And, get this, I've been doing house work without being asked or even expected. And before I do something, I ask God to help me do it without complaining or grumbling.

It's like He wants me to grow healthier in every way. Of course, that makes sense. What good father wouldn't want his child to be healthy and happy?

Life is finally getting better.

You know, growing up in a Christian home, I've grown up in the faith. I grew up just knowing. Just knowing that God is the King and Ruler over all things, just knowing that Jesus is God, but also God's Son who was born on earth, and was made human to save the lost sheep. Just knowing that Jesus died for our sins. Just knowing that those who continuously sin with no intention in asking for forgiveness from God will live eternally in Hell.

I grew up just knowing.

I mean, I believed, because I knew it was true. Because that's what I was taught.

But now, I'm an adult, I can think for myself, I can make up my own mind, and I can go my own way.

And now, I don't "Just know".
I believe, I feel it, I want it, I love it, I need it, I breathe it.

I feel God all around me, I feel Jesus in me.
I feel them both working in me, and curing my heart.
Washing me clean.
Making me better.
A better daughter, a better teacher, a better friend, a better Christian, a better steward of this covering God gave my soul(my body).

I've never felt more alive, more comforted, more free, more beautiful.

The Almighty God is the One to worship, the One to be praised.

Thank You, Father, for forgiving me my sins.
Thank You for washing me, and building me up.
Thank You for leading me back onto Your path.
Thank You for coming back to me.
Thank You, Father, for showing me that You answer prayer, and that You listen to little me.
I've never felt more at home.
It's You that I love, it's You I want to be like.
Keep Your hand on me, Lord, keep washing me clean.
I know I'm going to keep sinning, for I am human, but I will keep asking You to forgive me, and I will keep seeking Your face. Wash me, Lord. Wash me blameless.
I need You more than the sky needs the stars.
I need You more than I need food and water.
Jesus, You are my living water, and my living bread.
I thirst for You, Lord.


I would have never been able to say that prayer before.
God has saved me.
I'm not lost anymore.
I know how to get Home now.
"With God, all things are possible." Matthew 19:26